March 29, 2008
The finale.
Watched season finale of 6ft Under S2. Totally depressing. Totally.
No wonder I had dreams of death, fear of death and well, really just a lot of those stuff one associates with when one thinks of death. I can remember that helplessness, that absolute lack of words to convince anyone (least of all, oneself) that it's going to be OK. The immense, borderless fear.
I mean, as much as life can be so seriously fucked, it is just so much more frightening if you are faced with the no-option of letting it go. It's almost like your life doesn't even belong to you. Now, that feeling must be the mother of all fucked up feelings.
Anyway, I'm overdosed. I'm even dreaming about it. Shit. I need to get a break from the series.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 01:03